shine

i speak with sadness under circumstances grim

and i can tell she knows my tale.

the excuses i make for a hollowed soul

she dismisses with a shift in her eye.

looking through dulling green

past pale yellow strands

her brow parts and then furrows.

as i state all he is and how it's fine this time

her lips purse as words fight their way.

and through lies that i tell

to her and to me

i can hear the cowardly words i say.

the permission i've granted

compromised feelings i've shifted

brings misleading truths to her door.

she's saddened by my justification.

her mouth moves to speak 

and i break her trail slightly

for i know what she has to say.

and in depths of embarrassment i look for the answers

to make her see that i'm fine.

i know what is deserved by a heart like mine

because i've been here before.

but in ways i didn't know 

and in ways she sees me

she knows the pieces he's taken.

she tilts her head and her eyes become glossy

she's saddened by the denial i give.

i go to fight what she's wanted to say

but exhaustion has found my line.

that part of your soul that gives me hope

and the happiness you once had

has left your heart broken

and it's starting to show,

my love, you've lost your shine.