green

i wish i were the girl

who made the sun shine brighter each day for you.

who makes you smile upon each peaking dawn,

and ignites laughter in ordinary stances.

i wish i were the girl

who made the stars twinkle brighter in your sky.

who gives you wonder in deep navy seas

and dances in the pale beams of the moon.

i wish i were the girl

who knew the touch of your hand

who never knew of space or time

without the forbidden lingered thoughts.

this girl, however, exists

and in ways i find myself painted green.

in times of longing for closer distance,

i find envy in ways you allow her.

however, it's unfair of me to claim exhaustion

or to be down about her now,

because i am not the keeper of what you keep close

nor has this ever been accepted.

you see, i'd try to be these things for you

and to show you i know how.

but minds get made upon stone set things

and this season i can not change.  

but i'll still be the girl 

who will hold your umbrella through the rain.

and i'll still be the one

who wishes on your streaking stars.

because regardless of your intent

with the sun, the moon or stars

in small ways, around my heart

you'll always be that man.