i know you're upset. you feel like you're running in place. you want to do things on your own, to start your life which seems at times like it's constantly stalling. there are places you want to go, places you want to see, people you want to meet. stop making excuses and do it.
pieces of your heart are lost and honestly it's because you give them away too easily. you create lovely stories in your mind that have a beautiful happy ending. but when the ending doesn't pan out how you think or want it to, you become an alternate version of yourself which causes people not to want to be near you. and you know it's not who you are, or how you want to be perceived. stop pushing people to these lengths.
stop comparing yourself to people that have nothing to do with you or who you want to be. she's beautiful, but so are you.
stop blaming your lack of happiness on other people. you are in control of what makes you happy, you have a choice every day to sulk in your own self deprecated episodes, or to shine and be the girl that you are so proud to be.
you're not mad at him, you're mad at yourself. start aiming your anger and frustration in the right direction. it may be too late.
listen to your friends. listen to your family. listen to the world.
be loving. be hopeful. be funny. be thankful.
you know how to do this. you've done it before.
be good to yourself.
and start taking vitamins.
love.