i laugh.
what a fool i have been,
and so blinded by stories.
ways in which i feel sorrow for you,
and play in to such unfair schemes.
thinking i could be someone i am not,
someone you would care more for,
someone who i don't want to be.
molding myself in to a woman
that would be fit to be called your own.
watching your ways,
observing interests that seem important to you,
yet run parallel to me.
women who fit these molds,
girls who have squeezed their way in to you;
pouring all they have to light fire in your eyes.
how silly have i been.
letting days pass me by,
losing a recollection i once knew so well.
but i think sometimes,
when you've finally lessened my own self worth,
how awful are you?
to sit by and watch as you wave hearts from your face
like mosquitoes buzzing around your sweat filled brow.
better to be a fool in love,
than a fool running from it.
Wednesday, July 11, 2012
white rapids
rocky trails i have traced
and steep hills i have climbed
still puts acres between you and i.
i suppose that great feats
would prove something to you this time,
but i can't seem to do it right.
others, my competitive foes
seem to only move through
with ease.
but the battle seems uneven
as you never let me win.
just as i break down the stone
that keeps one side from another
you build your mountains higher
and the journey begins again.
car window
driving to a familiar place,
i roll my window down to breathe in crisp summer smells.
one hand on the wheel, the other dangling out to dance through the wind,
one hand on the wheel, the other dangling out to dance through the wind,
i smile at the flashing memory.
the taste of tobacco on my tongue and the shifting air across my back
leads me to a vivid flash.
and just as soon as i think of you, the image begins to fade.
i smile at the distance as a song comes on that reminds me of your ways,
and breaches other thoughts that work their way in.
time has created this gap and space holds it strong like two bases of a concrete bridge.
and though tears try and find their way as a familiar sadness enters my heart,
the flashes dissipate once more.
for you, my once trusted
my once thought of,
my once loved...
have trailed away from me
as sudden and smooth as the wind that still dances around my hand.
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